The white coats called me an Autistic Savant. “Her spacial cognizance is off the charts”. I have forever memory yet I’m now forced to deal with it through inhibited speech centers. My neural relays are scattered so it’s hard. It’s like having a silent movie, no words or even a common language with which to relay my information. I have it all, but some things are still out of order, so to speak. That’s a good way to say it.
I have been lobotomized. I have better shit to do than make this up and speak it out. Two times, I was lobotomized. The second time, I was overseeing the surgeon from my astral body, above, and I was fascinated by what I was seeing. Ever since, I’ve loved loved any kind of surgical stitching and procedures. I even contemplated becoming a surgeon in my 20’s. Anyway, I have a neural chip in my head from that last procedure. This is not news to other survivors of various programs, and that’s not the only place where I have hardware in my body. I’ve been tagged and chipped and many other MK Ultra type survivors have, too. When there are solar storms/coronal mass ejections or other solar weather disruptions/radiations…I get excruciating pain and can barely handle, on a physical pain scale, the amplifying that the solar energy does while interacting with my neural hardware. It’s real as the realest shit our there. I can’t wait for med beds to go mainstream down here. Speaking of that…I used tech up there that makes med beds look antiquated. There is technology which I used, that looks like a light uv sanitizing wand but it will regrow an arm that’s been blown off. Med Beds are super cool but super lame in comparison.
After thinking about it, it’s best not to say I HAVE forever memory, but instead say that I have the ABILITY to access any memory. I have it all, cognizantly, but I’m sometimes at a loss of how to access everything because, I’ve been neurologically messed with so much and my neural synapses are not all healed. Spacial cognizance means for me, that I CAN in the right frame of mind, access any information anywhere. It’s not true remote viewing, as I don’t quite believe I can be confined into that programmed way of accessing info, rather, I see everything based on it’s “node” and I see every node as connected across the Kosmos. I can go in as close as I want, to consciously view something, and there is nowhere within my level of awareness that I cannot mentally go. There are simply some places that are not meant to be viewed and should not be. In the realm of cognizant capability, I can “see” wherever I need to. Of course,there are many impacting factors to doing this, including my mental processor interpreting my consciousness into my physical reality, but…. well, someday I will meet another again, who understands my words and that will be nice. There are MANY more like me and there are a little over 25% of me and my Hundo kids left. Many many more people exist with this level of awareness. As a whole, humans all have this capability; we all simply have various places and levels of consciousness. The New Agey community (a CIA Psy op) call it “Ascending into another dimension”. Actually, many different groupings of people know it as this, and have spiritual beliefs based on where their conscious awareness is at. I don’t see it as good or bad or better that one person has higher awareness, because those who do not see as much at the MACRO level, like me, conversely exist more densely compressed into a lesser capacity of awareness, but they are able to see more of the microcosm. We all have to expand our consciousness as much as possible,eyes, to progress forward in existence, but as Starseeds on Earth, we have all taken different roles for different purposes, and thus, I don’t judge where another is at as “bad” or “good”. I’m at the MACRO level and too “out there” for many others to understand, but I have to work hard to understand what I see in the microcosm, which comes easily to others who don’t see as MUCH as me.
I have the ability to access any information because I can just locate and see it, but as it relates to day to day life, and being autistic and feeling like every nerve ending is exposed at all times…I tend to block and tune out much of it all just to get through to another day. So, once I block it out, I still find myself operating with my broken synapses and staying out of the macrocosm as a means of self preservation almost. It’s hard to go back and forth and live day to day, so that, too impacts me and my vision.